gobble gobble

This weekend consisted of:

• Dinner with family, which was, as usual, devoid of any turkey,
• Moonlight Madness shopping at Citadel Outlets, which was freezing but kind of worth it,
• Potluck with friends, which included delicious deep-fried turkey but I was DD and we all know how much it pains me not to drink, especially if chocolate martinis are readily available,
  
• A job application...though it was supposed to be five,
  
• Indulging in some Starcraft 2 and Naruto,
• Chocolate, cookies, hot cocoa and movies,
• Experimentation with this little thing. Bwahahaha gracias, J.
  

I don't need a holiday to be reminded of how much I have to be thankful for, but since it meant two days less at the depressing hole I call my office, I had absolutely no objections.

world's end rhapsody

Sipping on hot chocolate while listening to Nujabes as the rain pitter-patters against my windows. Can it get any more chill than this?

questionable motives

Sketchy invited me to watch movies with him at work the other night. Up until now, I thought maybe he just needed some friends in this lonely city. That could still be his motive, but now it seems equally likely that he's trying to make something happen. Who knows? I didn't go.

hallows & horcruxes

I gave Responsibility the finger last Thursday and went to catch the midnight show of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows, Part 1 at Universal CityWalk. It was EPIC. Almost every scene was done just the way I envisioned it when I read through the book. I've been so excited about it ever since the trailer was released and those 2.5 hours gave me everything I had hoped for. The settings were right out of the book, the cinematography was excellent and the acting was very well done. It's kind of strange to say this because I never saw him in this light before, but Daniel Radcliffe was looking pretty attractive in this movie. Must've been the ever-present 5 o'clock shadow. I gueeess the accent helped too. Can't wait to see the final installment!

Since I had long known it would be released on a weeknight, it occurred to me that choosing to watch this movie meant I'd be very tired at work the next day. And it crossed my mind to say no, but the reckless part of me felt it would be too awesome to pass up--I absolutely had to make an exception for Harry Potter. It did get me thinking though...now that my job is such a large part of my day, the responsible thing to do would be to give up the things that might negatively impact my work performance. But that's pretty much asking me to give up my fun. Moderation, you say? What's that?

What would be most ideal is not having to sleep so much. I'd get so much more out of my days if I didn't have to spend a third of them unconscious.

my love

You gave it all, gave into the call,
You took a chance and
You took a fall for us.

You came thoughtfully, loved me faithfully,
You taught me honor, you did it for me.

My love, leave yourself behind,
Beat inside me, I'll be with you.

rediscovery

You know that feeling when you have a favorite song and then you forget about it and then remember it again? Sometimes even the most trivial things in life can bring you so much pleasure.

Here's one of my rediscoveries.

so deep, so cool

me: btw, your mom is using your old phone from two years ago

and we were in the car and it started ringing

and the ringtone is still set to "so deep"

many memories came flooding back XD

J: LOL really

thats almost kinda awkward

having my mom's ringtone be something so cool

owned

Seriously, I need to work on becoming better at navigating social situations. Not only did I get myself stuck driving down to SD when I didn't really want to, but I also got myself into doing lunch with J's parents. Without J there. Why do I do this to myself?

Well, I know why I did it--the last part, at least. I would've felt really guilty if they somehow found out I had been in town and didn't drop by to say hello. And I really want to say, "At least I got a good meal out of it," but considering I had to work pretty hard during those two hours not to piss my pants while they prodded me for details about my job and future plans, I still think I got the short end of the stick.

They ended up taking me to a restaurant called The Cottage in La Jolla, which was a cozy-looking place that also offered outdoor seating--perfect for enjoying the bout of unusually nice weather that graced San Diego this weekend. Since breakfast was still available, I ordered stuffed French toast, which was French toast filled with fresh strawberries, mascarpone cheese and orange zest topped with powdered sugar and maple syrup. Sooo rich and delicious! J's parents ordered a crab melt and eggs benedict; I didn't try the latter, but the former was quite good as well, although it was a bit on the greasy side.

I hung out with the BFF afterward and had some long-overdue girl talk. She told me that she missed me, which actually came as a surprise to me...but it was touching and I let her know that I missed her too. I wish we could've spent more time together but this weekend just wasn't very well-planned. It's nice to know she still cares. Even though I can confide in J about anything, sometimes I just need a female to listen.

I also called up a couple of J's friends to see if they wanted to do something fun while I was in town. Unfortunately, Drinking Buddy wasn't available but Party Friend was down to play board games (Was that paradoxical? Party = board games?). He had a good laugh about how I got suckered into driving to SD and having lunch with the (I say this facetiously) future in-laws, while I poked fun at him for having to climb through the window into the driver's seat of his BMW because the lock had broken earlier that day. We played Settlers of Catan with two other friends, and I'm usually pretty awesome at that game but I got my ass handed to me by noobs. 'Twas a humbling experience but still a pleasant night.

My outlook on this weekend was pretty grim in terms of how much fun I expected to have, especially because I hadn't planned on going down. But I'm glad that I was still able to enjoy what SD had to offer even if J's no longer there as my anchor to the city.

random updates

The Older Man called in at work yesterday to inquire about something that we owed him. I thanked my lucky stars that he didn't hear me announce my name when I answered the call, thus avoiding much potential awkwardness...at least for him.

Also, I realized I never updated about Aunt Flo's status. It turns out that her indecisiveness was due to peer pressure from everyone else's aunts, who insisted that she wait for them before coming to town...the unfortunate consequence of spending 9 hours a day with a bunch of females.

just pretend

I could tell Boss has been getting irritated with me for not asking questions, but when I finally decided to ask a question today, Boss got annoyed anyway and told me to write down the directions I was given so that I "wouldn't forget."

I only pretended to write down what Boss said...because by that time it was the third iteration. Asshole.

improbable, but not impossible

Things I've been wanting lately:

• A tattoo
  
• Colored contact lenses
• One or two more ear piercings
• My own living space
• To never see Boss again
  

Three out of the five are quite attainable at this point in time. Three out of the five may also give my mother a heart attack. Can you guess which ones?

genders

I went out to dinner with my extended family the other day and because I had just gotten off work, I was still wearing my suit. I was playing with my little cousin and asked him to be careful since it would've been a pain to get a stain out of those clothes. Then he flashed me a mischievous grin and said, "You look like a man." Hmm, thaaanks.

Not sure how else to respond, I repeated his statement. "I look like a man?"

"Kind of. Because of your clothes."

"Ohhhhh. That's not a very nice thing to say :P"

"Well, because of these things," he tried to elaborate, patting the slightly-padded shoulder of my blazer.

Maybe it had more to do with the stern black color of the suit than its actual silhouette...

I also asked him whether he's a man or a woman, and he responded, "A woman." When I second-guessed his answer, he immediately burst into giddy laughter.

sad panda

J left today. For some reason, I feel like this song just fits all the nameless emotions swimming around in my mind right now. Sounds a little nostalgic with Cyndi Lauper's vocals, with a hint of optimism in the beat.

White Panda spins the smoothest mash-ups that have ever drifted through my ears.

it's november 2nd

Did everyone cast their ballots today? It astounds me how frequently I've been encountering people who think their votes don't matter. They have this defeatist or apathetic attitude and I just can't wrap my mind around how they don't see the power they throw away by not voting (never mind that it's kiiind of hypocritical of me to say this since I didn't participate in the 2008 election). Sure, one vote is just a drop in the ocean, but where would your ocean be if it weren't for all those drops?

I've never been all that into politics, but it's hard to stay out of it when you start to realize how much it affects your life, even if you don't immediately feel the impacts. I voted for the first time today, and though I didn't have a position on every issue or make a choice between every candidate, I punched the hell out of my ballot for the ones I did have time to read up on! I'm gonna make it a point to exercise this right to the fullest...just because I can, if for no other reason :)

this blows

This is the last hour I'll have with J before he gets on his 10:30am plane tomorrow. Listening to music together over Skype, making funny faces at each other and trying to come up with a name for a blog that he plans to start once safely abroad. That pretty much sums up how we spend most of our time together.

Now, to be celibate for 6 months...wish me luck!